So anyway, I spoke with Nicole Candelaria several times in the RC this week. One time she was really upset about me leaving and the Lady who gave her anti-mormon literature had talked to her again and tried to persuade her out of being baptized. She was so different this day. She said she didn't want to go to church if I was going to leave and she said she wouldn't talk to other missionaries and would not be baptized. This upset me alot. However, the next time I talked to her she had gotten over that hump and said that she now realized that Satan had been trying to deceive her. She is excited about the baptism on the 24th and she has continued having missionaries visit. I am kind of worried though because she expects me to send her lots of letter and she sent me five emails yesterday. She wants me to call her again before I leave but I alreayd told her I cannot and I will not because she needs to learn to have her foundation in Christ and in the gospel. I don't need disciples, I have no power to do anything for anyone. Christ is the only person who can help disciples. Anyway, I hope she'll be alright but I think she will.
Oh ya, for part of last week my Elder Evans and I were so ready to leave we could hardly focus and we slacked like crazy and we were unhappy because of this. But then we decided to focus harder than we have ever focused because many people tend to slack in their last week of the MTC. Since then, we have had the best week of our MTC experience. Finally, I love it here.
I am working really hard and I am actually trying to become a true disciple of Christ. At first it was really hard to invest myself fully and I kept thinking that this was gonna be a long two years. I guess i came here to check the mission off my list so that I could go on to live the life I wanted for myself, my career, my wife, my life. But now I realize that I need to have God direct my life. Not just pretend by being a good mormon. I need to put all trust in Him and forget about all the other cares. I want to get lost in the work.
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