Hola mi Novia,

The MTC is the hardest thing on the planet. I thought that it would be a breeze because I had worked so hard to get here but that doesn't matter every trial is still hard. However, things are going better and everyone says that the first week is by far the hardest because they are trying to break you. We had absolutely no free time ever until yesterday. I know it doesn't seem like it could have been that hard because i have only been here for so short of time, but I feel like i have been here for weeks. They all say that the weeks seem like days but the days seem like weeks and it seems pretty true so far. The spirit is so strong in the MTC. It is stronger here and spiritual experiences are more frequent then ever before but you can be spiritually soaring one minute and then the next minute you want to quit and you can't imagine going forward. On Thursday and friday, I was so angry at God for how hard everything was and for all the trivial rules that seem so stupid and that all contradict each other. I honestly was ready to call it quits but every time that happens the spirit comes and something pushes you on. I am committed to complete my mission faithfully and I am beginning to realize that anytime you focus on yourself and your own needs, your life sucks. There is just no two ways about it. But when you put yourself into others and focus on helping them you can be happy. I miss Magillikitty. Gosh I don't even know if I spelled it right and I made it up so I should now how right? Anyway my roommates are Elder Ferguson and Elder Wheeler, and of course my companion is Elder Cody Conder. My companion is a good guy although I think we would be unlikely friends if we had not been called as companions.

I am so excited to get to texas and actually start helping people. That is what it is really about. I think people lose sight of it here. Ithink that God called us with our distinct personalities for a reason and he wants us to enjoy the gospel because the gospel is a message of happiness.

Send me letters.

Love,
Elder Bernard